Today I put a disposable diaper on Jove. Lazy to bring him to the toilet to pee. Lately this guy can protest out loud if he did not want to pee in the toilet, only to wet his pants a few minutes later. Then he could not stay still on the bed, always trying to move, roll around, and going out of the waterproof sheet. So I just put the disposable and let him roam free on the bed.
Lately, I often lose my confidence on being a good mom when the baby refused to smile at me. Saturday night, after a full day outing (swimming, going to the mall, visiting the paternal grandparents) Jove cried hard in the car going back to my parents' place. We were supposed to go back home from their place afterwards, but I was afraid that the little guy would go mad again in the car. We could not stay in for another night since we ran out of clothes, so I decided to left him there with my parents. The overjoyed grandmother agreed to take care of him for the night. Mom and dad brought him back on Sunday morning. She said they had a wonderful time with him the whole night and morning. But then, my little guy refused to look at me when I called his name and asking him to come to my embrace. He hugged his grandma tight.
That was a mixed feeling moment. I was happy that he could be so attached with the grandma and was a little disappointed too for obvious reason. Grandma had to go home and I had my baby back... but also with a feeling of not being a good enough mom. I need to learn more from my mom, I guess. She's one of the best mom I know.
Anyway, Mom went to Semarang in the afternoon to see her mother. She already called me when she landed, but no news on the hospital visit yet. I do hope that Emak is recovering well, and this time, really healed.
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